Learning to Love a God Mystery
Rather
than pretty flowers, I have been enjoying
the weeds growing in my prayer garden this
spring and summer. I first noticed my weeds
around April when my husband commented about
my weed garden. I’m sure he was assuming
that I had every intention of pulling them
up. The weeds had filled up the various terracotta
planters that had once held my hopes of creating
a prayer garden in my back yard. I intended
to fill them with the leftover annuals from
the front yard, but I never had time to plant
last spring. So, there the pots sat, empty
and waiting to be filled. There was a very
cute Garden Angel, given to me by my sister,
flying over the gathering of empty pots,
and a cross that sticks out of the once flowering
pots, but nothing else but dirt until the
weeds showed up.
When I first noticed the
weeds, I did intend to pull them up. But
the longer I waited, the larger this one
particular weed grew. I had never seen a
weed like it and thought it had an uncanny
resemblance to marijuana. I was fascinated
by it, but didn’t want to let it grow
if it was an illegal drug. After an internet
search I was certain it was legal and left
it to grow. When friends visited we invited
them to view our weed garden. No one was
really impressed, I can assure you. By May
the weed was over six feet tall. I didn’t
know what to think. By July, it was as tall
as our house. We were busy packing and planning
for our summer vacation, but I quickly made
Ben pose for a picture with the weed before
we went out of town. I was sure that it would
die like all my favorite flowers do when
we leave in July. |
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Rather than die, the weed just grew; it grew
and grew and it is still growing, except that
ever since a hard rain, it started leaning
to the left. I’ve
never seen a weed like it, although I’ve been searching in abandoned fields.
It is my special weed.
I was sure that God had some special insight that He would give me about this
weed. It would be easy to apply the truth that if you don’t pull up the
weeds of sin in your life, they will grow so large that there is no pathway left—which
is now the case with my weed. I could also look at my weed as God’s special
provision just for me. The weed has truly delighted me. It reminds me of when
God had a plant grow to give shade to Jonah. I don’t think I will get mad
at God the way Jonah did when the weed shrivels—if it ever shrivels. I’m
beginning to have my doubts that it will ever die.
As I sat pondering my weed this past Sunday, I just had to accept that it is
a mystery. God is like that, you know. He is a mystery because our finite minds
cannot take Him in. Sometimes, we need to just acknowledge that He is there working,
speaking into our lives and that we are doing the best job we can of receiving
His messages. Jesus said, I have spoken to you of earthly things and you
do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things (John
3:12). What I believe is that God loves me and that I can sense Him working in
my life, even through a weed.
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