If you were to ask people who know me, they would say, “Debi says God is enough!” Trusting in God is the foundation of my life.
Something you may not know about me is that I have a deep need to be right. Recently I’ve been faced with a problem that in my mind has a right answer. When I am right, I assume God will back me up! Not in this case. Some very godly people asked me to go along with what wasn’t right in my mind. They didn’t ask me to do something wrong they just asked me to put love before justice, and my right solution was to put justice before love. (Um-that should have been the first clue that I wasn’t as right as I thought I was!)
Is God enough? I think I’m enough. I was fully committed to my plan. I didn’t want to do it another way. I understood that the other way wasn’t a wrong way. I could grasp the rationale for doing it that way. It was definitely the more humble and loving way. The problem was—it wasn’t my way. God in His great love and compassion for me did not let me go my own way without challenging me over and over. The Holy Spirit kept reminding me that godly people were asking me to respond in another way.
Why am I so committed to my own way? I believe that I am enough. I believe that I could convince others that I am enough and that my wisdom is enough. I was convinced that I could straighten out this situation.
Either I believe God is enough or I believe I am enough. God is enough, but it doesn’t look like He is enough when you focus on what is seen. In John 6:5-9, Jesus has a conversation with His disciples:
When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him, He said to Philip, “Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?” He asked this only to test him, for He already had in mind what He was going to do. Philip answered him, “It would take more than half a year’s wages to buy enough bread for each one to have a bite!” Another of his disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, spoke up, “Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”
It is rarely obvious when God is enough. Like Philip, I say to God, what you are asking me to do is irrational. I need to be like Andrew and see what I do have. What I can see is that godly people are asking me to do something they feel led by God to direct. I need to take what I see and give it to Jesus so He can take it and break it then pray over it and ask God to be enough for every person involved.
Yes, God is enough. Why do I forget?